Done!!

Fetzensocks, started August 28th, 2007, finished October 9th, 2007
Pattern: Fetzensocks from the Sockamaniac Yahoo Group. I converted it to toe up and did my usual CTH toes and heels.
Yarn: Lisa Souza Pumpkin
Pattern Notes: The pattern itself was fine, but my ability to keep track of where I was, was horrible and I had to unknit rows several times. I just never got into a rhythm.

I’ve officially put the LFFCS/BOBA in hibernation. Since the broken cable incident, I haven’t had the heart to pick it up again.

Dickenson Pullover:

Finished the back:

Started the front:

You can see from this picture how far I’ve gotten on the front. Only about 3 more inches til the armhole/v-neck decreases.

New technique:
Taught myself how to cable without a cable needle. Wendy’s excellent instructions and pictures are here. I highly recommend this technique. So much faster and less fiddly.

Started:

Lorna’s Laces Shepherd Sport Forest. Nothing fancy here, just a plain stockinette sock with my usual CTH toes and heels.

Socks done before I started blogging again:

Lorna’s Laces Shepherd Sock Gold Hill. Feather and Fan pattern from Wendy (link opens a pdf file). These have been sitting in my “need to change something pile” for a long time. The first sock I knit a plain stockinette rolled edge for the cuff and the second sock I did picot on the cuff. I like the picot better and kept meaning to go back, tear out the cuff on the first sock and redo in picot. Today I finally decided, I’m never going to get around to so fuck it. That’s why you can’t see the whole sock in pic. I covered the cuffs with my pants. Short row heels. Too snug, but wearable. I need gussets. Can’t remember how I did my toes, but I do know I knit these toe up. The feather and fan cuff is really pretty and I love it.

I bought the yarn on eBay. I love it. It’s soft and pink! A fun pink. A cheer me up pink. I’m wearing them right now and the happy pinkness of them is helping me survive this day. Toe up, short row heels. Don’t fit great, but are wearable and comfy. I’m not sure if they are superwash wool or not…I guess I’ll find out the first time I accidentally mix them in with the regular laundry.

New Yarn:

Knitpicks Panache, 12 skanks each of Coal (the Black) and Dusk (the Blue). Panache is being discontinued, so I snagged a bunch.

Holy lack of posting, batman…yeah, well this ain’t one of those, “sorry, guys, I haven’t been posting posts.” Well, kinda it is. It’s really just my excuse. Here’s my excuse. Fucking depression. If I ever manage to feel good a few days in a row, you can bet your ass something will happen to bring me down again. And what with the way my depression (bi-polar-ish) works, I stay down a few days. I’m not that good at processing emotions, so says my therapist. It’s true.

So anyhow, the Rupert thing has had me up and down and back up a bit, then way down again, for more than a week now. She was doing really good for a few days there, but now she’s not doing good again. For the last 2-3 days she hasn’t been able to get up on her own, and even when I help her…she can’t seem to stay up. And it freaks her out. The other night, I found her whimpering in a corner, soaking wet with pee, and the entire foyer floor was covered in it. I think she may have tried to stand up, couldn’t, got freaked out, peed on herself, then drug herself around on the floor. By the time I got to her, she was just a mess. The remedy was not comforting to her either. My husband helped me get her in the tub and I got her washed off, but she hates being picked up, restrained, bathed…all of the above and we were doing it to her. By the time I got her out and dried off, she was shaking and upset, and so was I. She seemed a little better the next morning, but not much. She has good moments, but they’re getting fewer and farther between.

I’ve got a message in to our vet. I plan to tell him how she’s been since last week when we saw him and she got the new pain pills, how she was better, and is now bad again…and ask him what other things there may be to try for her. I have the feeling, based on our last visit, that there’s not much else to give her. It’s kind of a matter of how much longer I can stand to see her like this. If he says there’s nothing else medically we can try, I’ll make an appointment to have her euthanized on Friday morning. We’re going camping that day, so I can just try to relax and deal with my feelings all weekend…then come home to an empty house on Sunday. *sigh*

I’m in the process of adjusting my medication and that has the potential to help, but it’s also difficult for me to transition through. Lowering the dose of one of my meds always gives me terrible dizzy spells and my mind feels out of control. And raising the other one which tends to agitate me. *shaking head* fucking depression. I hate this. I’m a week into it, and its getting better, but it’s been a bad week.

So yeah, not a great week.